"there, in the midst of it, so alive and alone, words support like bone"*

First post of 2009. and unfortunately, not a good one.

We saw Dr. Kelly yesterday for results from his latest CT and then to get chemo, our usual routine. I have to say, I had a feeling it wasn't going to be good news. The tumor on his adrenal gland has almost quadrupled in size since the last scan 6 weeks ago. It has grown 4mm in one direction. I have a feeling that taking him off of the carboplatin was part of the culprit. He's been getting just the taxol for the last few cycles, and apparently, it's not enough. So, no chemo for now, Dad starts radiation in a week. Every day for two weeks, then scans a month after that. After that, we have two options left, one of which is a clinical trial she thinks he'll qualify for, the other is another chemo medication. And then, that's all. 

Our future is full of both wild uncertainty and most concrete certainty, all at the same time. All we can do is take the next step and wait. Please keep all of us in your prayers.

*Mercy Street, Peter Gabriel's homage to Anne Sexton